Hiding on the mountain of Transcendence
Why directly addressing reality is safer and more fruitful than floating above it
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Let me start by telling you a story:
I once worked with a client who had been struggling for many years to attract a relationship. Let’s call him Daniel, which is not his real name. Daniel was over 50, hadn’t had a romantic relationship in 25 years and was deeply longing for one.
He told me that he meditated a lot, practiced with a Buddhist group, and thought the reason for his inability to find a partner was that modern women were too chaotic and not spiritual enough. He believed there was a mismatch between his calm demeanor and others' high emotions, drama, and recurring problems. He shared that he rarely experienced high emotions and considered himself very Zen.
When I looked at his aura, I saw tons of white light and a lot of chaos underneath: explosive clouds of anger and shame, a dead mother who had made herself comfortable in his space and kept berating and belittling him from within his aura, many painful past experiences that were unprocessed and active in his space as if they had just happened, leaving him unable to even be in his body long enough to start sorting through them.
I also found lots of desires and assumptions about how things should be that matched the white light frequency: they were pictures of perfection that lacked the nuance, complexity, and limitation that are characteristic of human life on earth and were therefore unattainable. Holding on to those pictures, he quickly discarded his own manifestations that were directly proportional to his limited capacity of being present with life and therefore very far from his perfect pictures.
Had he engaged with them, they could have been gateways towards a life that felt more fulfilling to him, slowly building up both his capacity and the quality of his life.
This story highlights some potential dangers of transcending our personal experience in the pursuit of not having to feel the pain of being human. Transcendence can be attained through different things: quickly resorting to eternal spiritual truths when something triggering happens “We are all one,” “I create my own reality,” “Everything happens for a reason,” etc. While these are all true, they are at odds with how certain experiences feel for our very human parts. Those parts create our reality as well and they will externalize their pain that we don’t acknowledge by leading us towards experiences that bring us in even more contact with them: illness, conflict, lack, unfortunate events…
A common energy work practice that corresponds with transcendence and thinking thoughts that vibrate at the frequency of consciousness that are disincarnate is flooding the aura with white light, a practice that Daniel achieved both by training himself to repress his emotions and non-spiritual desires as well as actively visualizing a white light that washed through his body and aura.
In this article, I would like to introduce an alternative practice: using the frequency of golden light and its corresponding frequency of engaging with life as it is instead.
Especially in our current time with Earth's frequency rapidly changing, simple and subtle changes can have huge consequences, opening up different timelines and allowing us to build and choose very different 3D experiences in real-time.
The alternative practice of utilizing golden light comes from the specific lineage where my work is rooted, and it is often practiced and taught differently in many other energy work traditions, including many Eastern traditions and many New Age communities. Therefore, it is not surprising that my client thought that using white light was a good idea.
If you currently utilize white light/transcendence as well, don’t worry. You might want to ask yourself if trying something new would be appropriate for you at this time, and then treat it as a little experiment. If both concepts are entirely new to you, you can simply try out both and add them to your toolkit for playing on the human playground.
Flushing the Aura and Body with White Light for Clearing and Protection
Many teachings utilize white light to cleanse the body and energy field and protect from harmful energies. For a large portion of history, humanity’s main direction of spiritual pursuit was focused on transcendence, desirelessness, and enlightenment. While this is still a path one can choose, an alternative path emerged, placing the spiritual focus on the sacredness of the everyday life human experience, giving it innate worth.
This tradition was highly influenced by the Seth teachings, a being that was channeled by Jane Roberts throughout the 70s. It gave rise to the channeling of beings like Abraham Hicks and the New Age movement. This is also where the notion that we create our own reality through our mind rose to popularity.
While there is a lot of nuance to be added in order to paint a complete and grounded picture, equipping every human (regardless of their place on the journey towards enlightenment) with divine creative powers changed the game in a big way. Applied skillfully, it has the potential of creating a fun, deep, and magical life experience. But in order to make use of it, we need to understand what this shift really means and not confuse different teachings and mix them together in a sparkly stew in New Age fashion.
If we want to use our creative powers effectively and responsibly we have to pick up the practice of increasing our awareness of the many parts of us that exercise those powers in every moment of our lives. In order to achieve that we have to become familiar with the whole scale, our parts that are more light and the parts that are more dense, but just as creative and powerful as the lighter ones. This is where white light/transcendence teachings reach their limitations.
While white light works momentarily, it has some long-term ramifications. White light has such a high frequency that it is unsustainable for the personal body and aura. By focusing our attention on the frequency of white light, parts of our personal range are transcended, limiting our ability to engage with what is alive for us, potentially hindering our healing and leaving us unaware of what’s going on in our own field.
Example:
Imagine feeling very agitated during a fight with a loved one. Flushing your energy field with white light might make you feel lighter, as if floating above the situation. It might lead to thoughts like, "Everyone is trying their best," or "It’s okay because deep down, I know that we’re meant to be together," or “they are my twin flame” thereby suppressing immediate anger, distress, and behavioral impulses. Thus, this practice can cover up underlying issues, such as:
Repressed Emotions: anger/grief/love/joy…: If you felt the need to employ white light/transcendence in the first place, it might indicate a pile of repressed emotions from previous encounters and corresponding programming that makes feeling them seem wrong or dangerous.
Stuck unprocessed experiences/fragmented parts: Unmetabolized (childhood/earlier life) memories tend to trigger survival responses during confrontations, perpetuating patterns of victimization or aggression, keeping us in loops of reenacting our trauma.
Cords, Karma, Contracts…: Subconscious programming, like messages of unsafety and guilt from parents, other authority figures, or role models who perhaps had a habit of avoiding confrontation themselves or blowing up in dangerous ways, might be activated during triggering situations.
Authentic/conditioned impulses: We might have an impulse of saying or doing something that would reveal a truth about (a part of) ourselves, but by white lighting ourselves, this truth remains hidden and we don’t get to integrate it into our self-concept. Instead of saying something hurtful to the other person and recognizing how hurt we are ourselves and how saying it didn’t create a lot of long-term satisfaction, we can keep the rigid self-concept of “I am a good person who would never hurt another” – which is not only untrue but also nothing we can grow from.
White light can temporarily cover these up, making us feel better but preventing constructive progress.
Homagial Crown (Polish Crown Jewels), 15th century, anonymous Polish artist
Golden Energy of neutrality
While simply changing a color can seem overly simple and even trivial—a color carries a lot of archetypal implications. There is a reason why many cultures throughout history crowned (and still crown) their leaders with golden head decorations and why gold has historically been a highly esteemed currency.
Golden energy has a different frequency—while white light corresponds with transcendence, golden energy aligns with neutrality: allowing things to be as they are.
This is a crucial point: Golden light carries the energy of neutrality. And neutrality is the absence of resistance, which means letting things take up the space that they naturally want to take up. Surely a necessary skill for every leader who decides over life and death on the daily.
Golden light helps us clear our resistance to life, enhancing our capacity to stay present, become aware of the bigger picture as well as the deeper layers, engage resourcefully and kindly, heal, and transform.
In our example, golden light might help us connect with our anger and increase our capacity to remember to clear the portion of anger that doesn’t belong to us. It could give us the ability to take a moment and discharge the anger safely without harming the other person or the relationship. It could help us create more space for our self-concept and therefore release judgment towards other people’s anger.
Golden light could facilitate recognizing the connection between current experiences and childhood, offering us the opportunity to come to terms with what happened, move on, and create different experiences.
It grounds us into the fact that we are now adults, and our survival no longer depends on securing a relationship with our caretakers.
Additionally, it could heighten our awareness of our caretaker’s voice that fills our head through the cord: "Good girls don’t shout!”, “If you’re going to behave like that, do it alone in your room!”, “You will never find a girlfriend if you keep being angry like that!”…
In the case of Daniel, it could gently bring him back into the range of his body and energy body, allowing him to start integrating his trauma, reclaim his energetic space, re-own his humanity with its desires, and open up opportunities for connection with other people.
Practice: Experiencing the Difference Between Transcendence and Neutrality
If you’re curious, try it out yourself:
Ground: Create a green grounding cord (a stream of energy) connecting your root chakra to the Earth's core. The root chakra can be found at the base of the spine in men and between the ovaries in women.
Imagine Trigger Scenario: Imagine a slightly triggering situation (e.g., a confrontation, health issue, public speaking event, or unfulfilled desire) and put it on a screen in front of you, outside of your energetic space. You could imagine a little television playing the scene for you.
Flood with White Light: Now, wash your body and aura and the television holding the scene with glistening white light and note your feelings, images, and thoughts. Do this for a couple of minutes.
Drain White Light: Let the white light drain completely down your grounding cord. Imagine how it effortlessly flows out of your body, your aura, and your trigger scene.
Wash with Golden Light: Now invite warm and rich golden light from the sun into your body, aura, and scene. To enhance the experience you can additionally focus on running it through your crown chakra and turning it golden – letting it vibrate at the golden light frequency.
Check-In with Trigger: Revisit your trigger scenario. How does it feel now? Do you have different sensations, thoughts, or images? Do specific people come to mind in relation to this scenario? Can you sense past experiences that might be wired throughout your system in relation to this scenario?
Release: Intend to drop everything that is ready to be released and everything that doesn’t belong to you down your grounding cord. Watch different colors, faces of people, and experiences simply drain from your space like you did with the white light. Let the television and your trigger scene evaporate in front of you, leaving nothing but golden dust of wisdom and breathe the dust back into your crown.
Cleanse and Refill: Invite some more of the golden light into your aura and add green earth energy from deep in the ground for a thorough wash, filling up all spaces from which you just released something. Intend to create the perfect mixture of both energies that is most supportive for you at this point.
Please remember that there is no right or wrong way of doing things. We all have very different paths, and different truths can be equally true at once. Always trust your own guidance system and know that a nuanced approach that leaves lots of space for the greys and in-betweens is often the most productive.
While the story about my client who struggled with finding a relationship might sound scary, simply utilizing white light was definitely not the root cause of his struggles. It was, in his case, an unhelpful coping mechanism that kept him from taking the necessary steps in order to participate in life again, which was becoming a strong desire for him. Therefore, there is no reason to be afraid of white light.
Everything has its proper time and space.
